i-hope-you-choke-on-it:

epochryphal:

psa “here’s a #suicide hotline with zero context” is so unhelpful and upsetting

i need to know at a minimum if they’re
1. religious-based
2. lgbT-competent
3. risk-reduction or total abstinence
4. going to inform any authorities, call ambulances, that shit

jfc shoving a string of numbers at ppl with “this’ll fix it!!!” is so insulting and unrealistic, you have no idea how many folks have been failed by this shit already

moreover: tag your fucking suicide hotlines

ok this is the single most relevant, important thing ive seen on tumblr in fucking months i want to throw OP a fucking party

a good majority of these numbers you’re flinging at people have the most INSULTING approach imaginable, they basically will just repeat everything that you’re saying back to you (“it sounds like you’re really sad! :\”) and if you mention you are actively suicidal/in severe distress they either call an ambulance against your will or tell you they “can’t help you in this severe state” and hang up on you

literally, i am not joking.

i have yet to hear of a single hotline that does not have religious/cult motivations, is respectful of the caller’s wishes not to be contacted by EMT’s/police if they so choose, and is fully equipped to actually have a fucking functional conversation beyond repeating sentences back verbatim and spoon-feeding DISGUSTING and insulting advice/platitudes (“too many people love you, you have to think of them”, “look for the positives!” “be strong!!!!”)

After being let down by the mental health system so many times I’m practically fucking underground I am EXTREMELY passionate about this, PLEASE reblog the fuck out of this so people can gain a better understanding of what suicide hotlines actually are and will stop offering them to distressed people reaching out for help and then frolicking away thinking they were a super special helpful snowflake

(via fuckyeahsexanddrugs)

I often wonder what lies ahead for me, and honestly everything is waiting for you to make it happen.

Have you ever woken up and just felt pain? Like not pain that would go away, but straight up mental and emotional pain that became so great that it turned into an eternal manifestation of physical pain. Now imagine living like that for your entire life but only now does it get worse and hurt more because everything around you coming down and destroying your hope for even the slightest bit of happiness. Worse thing is when the girl you fucking love more than anything repeatedly uses you while she fucks your bestfriend whilst still fucking you and expects you to just accept that fact. Yiu cant trust anyone because everytime you open up, people continuously leave or tell you “you’re fine” and “its just teenage hormones” well what if it isnt? What if its how you were born and after all the time you’ve spent trying to be happy it just isnt worth it anymore? You’re treated like shit by everyone around you, you’re the black sheep of the family and you’re going nowhere in life. You go to therapy already, you work full time and you have a bunch of stuff to pay for that you cant really afford. What do you do? What honestly seems like your best option.